say something crazy.

July 28, 2006

there are some days when people ask you to do things a bit differently than planned. since neither outweighs the other, often times i agree. and now, at the end of the day, i wonder, had i not followed would things have turned out differently?

background: today i was supposed to go to the gym branch which is closer to my review school. but upon the insistence of my parents, i went to my more frequented branch. i don’t know why they insisted on me going to the further one, maybe that’s the beauty/tragedy of it.

upon arriving at the gym, out of the corner of my eye, i saw someone i knew from long ago. several emotions and mixed feelings surfaced. stuff i knew only a few people could do to me.

it’s been a long time. there’s definitely tension.

and then you question why.

why everything conspired for that encounter to take place. up until now, i still don’t know. i just hope that things will eventually fall into place, or accept that they already are.

two days down.. two more to go. but before the last two days, i have a little down time to get up and catch some air before going back down to drowning myself in debits and credits, etc. what fun.

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things will always be simplified. and sometimes it is thru the simplicity that we understand the complexity of who we are and the magnitude of who we can be.

how i knew about it: thru a game of polar bear. try it sometime.

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to dare every day to be irreverent and bold.
to dare to preserve the randomness of mind
which in children produces strange and wonderful new thoughts and forms.
to continually scramble the familiar
and bring the old into new juxtaposition.
-Gordon Webber

goal: challenge myself to do something random at least once a day.

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you said: you don’t know me, and you don’t even care.
she said: you don’t know me and you don’t wear my chains.

She said I think I’ll go to Boston.
I think I’ll start a new life.
I think I’ll start it over, where no one knows my name.

I’ll get out of California, I’m tired of the weather.
I think I’ll get a lover and fly him out to Spain.
Well I think I’ll go to Boston.

I think that I’m just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset.
I hear it’s nice in the summer, some snow would be nice.

-Boston, Augustana

…no, i can’t relate to the lyrics. but that doesn’t make me not love the song. even if i am a lyric girl at heart. heard this first during the one tree hill season ender (season three), and just loved it eversince. maybe it was the scene when it was played, maybe it’s the way it’s sung, maybe it was my mood when i was watching that scene. whatever the reason is, my itunes play count reads 10. so yeah, i love it.

feeling a moment.

May 15, 2006

How do you feel when there’s no sun
How do you feel when rain drops come pouring down again
How do you feel when there’s no one
Am I just like you?

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its the day before. i’m back where i was six months ago. have i learned what i’m supposed to? after another half year spent understanding what i’ve learned the past four years, it boils down to this test again. will i make it?

the suspense is killing me.